Straight homosexuals: a breakthrough in amateur e-sociology

[parsifal]

no, but that one is keyed.

[Zed]

so that's why it sounds like pomo nonsense--it is. much as french-jewish perverts might like to imagine everyone who's repulsed by sodomy is some lowly peasant goy the identification with gentry is nonsense wishful thinking. quite the opposite any aristocracy is subject to much stricter mores while the commoners are often left to their own devices. "fetishes" are plainly a mass-cultural phenomenon and should be viewed more like a mental parasite whose effects are a result of being introduced externally to an already-compromised individual and which can be healed with proper intervention.

indeed there are higher expressions of love than sex but they are completely different from paraphilias.

May as well go personal at this point: I see it as a spiritual point. When a lover confesses a desire, I wish to create the conditions that allow her to experience it most intensely. That it may be debasing only raises the metaphysical and spiritual stakes. The conceptions and norms of the world outside are almost irrelevant to this - yet if I feel small weakness in those moments, it comes by a hesitation at the judgement of others. Some lingering ghost I've yet to fully expunge from my soul. At the moment, I feel an intense overwhelming desire to go further, else I find myself a slave to those echoes within. When we are alone after, we find ourselves now further from the world. Yet we are alone together and feel all the closer for it... and I could not imagine wanting to be anywhere else. 

Taking pleasure in the exploration of darkness is a pathology of my soul, but the natural inclinations to resist and defy the constraining norms of social milieu is innate to many of us. In nowhere but the most intimate and personal of acts is that weight felt so deeply.

[Guest]

Thanks once again, and do not worry too much about judgement on my part. While obviously an unideal condition I can understand that it was, in one way or another, probably hoisted onto you through formative relationships with women in your younger years. A few more questions, if you don't mind:
Do you remember what your first crush was like, if so, did you exhibit the same femdom tendencies then? Do you think any of your romantic relationships had any effect at all?
Are you a zoomer?
Do you visualize the women dominating you in a particular art style or as real women? If the former, what art style is it, and if the latter, do they usually have a particular form of dress?
What media did you enjoy consuming as a child and early teenager?
Can you describe the environment you grew up in, primarily school?
What's your relationship with religion?

1. First crush was on a half-white half-japanese girl, high school freshman year. She was big into boys and had a boyfriend non-stop until the end of school, which helped me not to say anything to her. I think I discovered this fetish at around the same time, I remember fantasizing about her torturing me. I have never had a romantic relationship.

2. I am 23.

3. They are idealized 3D women, perhaps in early Renaissance Italian style. I like the standard modern leather and latex dominatrix gear.

4. As a kid: Jules Verne, H.G. Wells, Joseph Conrad, R.L. Stephenson (sp.?), Poe, Melville, Dracula, Frankenstein. The Foundation trilogy and I, Robot by Isaac Asimov. While in grade school I read much of Lovecraft, and tried to read his 'influences' like Ambrose Bierce. In early childhood I learned to read from the Bionicle books. There was no TV available but I would watch Cartoon Network if available; I liked Avatar, Billy & Mandy, and Ed Edd & Eddy. As an early teenager, I read less than I did as a child, but read similar material. It wasn't until late high school that I diversified what I read (mostly Greek and Roman material).

4. I was delayed at a pre-K for one year due to immaturity. I started grade school in the public system, with attempts to skip me forward in the program stifled by bureaucracy. I went to a Jewish Communist private school to finish grade school and junior high. I went to high school at a public magnet school that had a much better reputation than my home district. There was never a change of address. My parents have a good marriage. As a kid my sister (5 years older) would take my things, come in my room without asking, and insult and threaten me, and this led to a lot of fights. I would accuse my parents of favoritism. When we got older the dynamic became political in a way I felt powerless to resist; deep sibling animosity was in place by my early teens. Both my parents' families are present in the area, but my mother was constantly dealing with dysfunction in her family. I was heavily involved in Boy Scouts and Cub Scouts and spent much time with my father. 

5. I converted to Orthodox Christianity in the Russian mode Summer 2022. I considered myself Christian throughout life. My family life was secular, though as a child my dad read through the New Testament with me, and my dad feels obligated to read the Bible. (Nowadays, he is actually reading it, he used to just wish he read it).

Hope this helps.

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I dont think a desire to be sacrificed by a gynocratic cult is particularly healthy.

It's definitely unhealthy; I try to avoid that tendency. However, I also try to have the taste for martyrdom that Christians should feel. What I hope is that what I've got can be put to better use (I referred to wanting to sublimate it in my original post) than masturbation. I don't masturbate anyways.

[Guest]

I also just now recalled that in early teenagerhood I consumed a lot of slice of life anime. Azumanga Daioh, K-on, Lucky Star and some others.

[Zed]

Lucky Star

Done in.

[Guest]

I must lol at the anti-missionary idea espoused on page 3.
First off: I am a fake-cel, stone me if you must.
Secondly, "deviance" measured by position makes no sense. One can perform the rote function in whatever position.
Third: Missionary provides for the most skin-to-skin contact besides the reverse situation of cowgirl. And yet women are lower in energy and athletic performance. Ergo, missionary provides the most capacity for skin-to-skin contact as well as full physical power.
Fourth: Sex, at the level of deviance, is not visual at all. The eyes might be open, but one is in a different state of being, and is not necessarily seeing. If you cannot access this state, you will never be deviant.
Fifth: The destruction of the other during the act is most total when done in this way...It has nothing to do with pain, nor wanting to give one pleasure, but is simply the act of transporting the other to that strange place which does not normally exist.
Sixth: "Deviance" is most present previous to and after sex. To be that which a woman would sacrifice everything for, without being anything different at all. Unfortunately, the same will apply to men and homos will attempt to swoop you. What can one do?
Seventh: There is no need to cope for your own fetishistic thinking. Most fetishes expressed online are due to "Lack Of Sex", which is not necessarily your fault in times like now. It is best to consider it your fault if you wish to have sex (although this might cost you other, higher, drives...Still it might help those drives too. Acquire a whore and test it for yourself.)
Eight: Missionary provides eye contact which is inherently more deviant than anything else you can think of.
Ninth: Missionary allows you to kiss on the lips which is inherently even more deviant than the previous act.
Tenth: Missionary is the position of breeding a new land. Compare to weak name like "Doggystyle". Or whatever 'dommy-mommy-soon-I-will-be-faggot-raped-by-jimmy-jonny' fantasies you have. All these fantasies are very similar, very midwit, and not of higher minds. See Depeche Mode (congratulations, you are depeche mode bondage/bdsm guy.)

Consider this a Warning. Missionary is far more powerful than you. I am merely a herald of what is to come. You will be utterly subsumed by the stupidity of your cope if you continue along your path.

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Eleventh: Somethings got give

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWWWWWWW

LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR
LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR
LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOR

LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR
LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR
LET THE BODIES HIT THE FLOOR

Skin against skin, blood and bone
You're all by yourself but you're not alone
You wanted in and now you're here
Driven by hate, consumed by fear

[Zed]

All these fantasies are very similar, very midwit, and not of higher minds. See Depeche Mode (congratulations, you are depeche mode bondage/bdsm guy.)

[GraphWalkWithMe]

All these fantasies are very similar, very midwit, and not of higher minds. See Depeche Mode (congratulations, you are depeche mode bondage/bdsm guy.)

Recently found out that not only are Depeche Mode not all gay guys, NONE of them are gay. This is highly concerning...

[Guest]

Lucky Star

Done in.

Woe is me!

[JohnnyRomero]

actually, fellatio is disgusting whether or not catholics say it is. please refer to the seminal tweet on the subject.

"Don't do anything with your wife that you wouldn't do with your sister."

Is that the one?

"I'm from Alabama."

[victor]

There was such a theory (referring to toxoplasmosis and its effect on rats) but it's unfortunately easily refuted when it comes to humans.

Toxoplasmosis has been robustly linked to schizophrenia albeit in as one non-necessary non-sufficient factor in a multi factor inventory. Comorbidity of schizophrenia with male homosexuality is exceptional even for their disproportionate mental illnesses.

"gay and bisexual men showed twice the rate of anxiety disorders and schizophrenia and (or) psychotic illness, even after accounting for mental disorder comorbidity."
"Sexual orientation and its relation to mental disorders and suicide attempts: findings from a nationally representative sample"
https://pubmed.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/21324241/

I suspect it isn't entirely coincidence. I wonder if I should deworm dykes before breeding. Can't hurt, right?

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Oh, my account came through. Pseudonym surprise!

>can't hurt right?
retard question duh worms during pregnancy? forgive me I shouldn't post more tonight

On the topic of fantasies consider the role of existential anchors. The objective, healthy man needs only reality or his own perception to give magnitude to his fantasies. Fantasies of malnourished minds may require recognition of intimacy by an outside other. There were more examples I thought up that fit this sort of role in people's minds but I forget them.

[Guest]

https://www.jocat.net/
https://twitter.com/JoCat105/status/1736801862236746107
The guy who made the video on the OP

[stair_fail]

So you get an invasive question as opposed to a 'hello,' or just polite indifference and respect for abstract space. This sort of gregariousness I tend to think is an un-white trait because it's not really associated with northern cultures.

>Ask "Aryan" how his day was
>Is immediately offended at another human being not being miserable 24/7 as his Nordo-Sw*dish ancestors were
Once again this is why Meds conquered the world, and nordics conquered cheap furniture and meatballs